Changes. Oh, how we all hate them. We do so many things from habit. Today, I went to relax and turn on my favorite show Judge Judy. It wasn't on. I had on the right channel, right? Then I realized it was a Saturday. Now what do I do with my hour that entertained me?
Sounds a lot different than a major decision with a substance abuser, but it made me stop and think of how I was going to fill that hour. Imagine an alcoholic who wants to stop their habit that is killing them? The usual hour meeting up with the same friends who drank is now facing them. They're bored. What do they do when their insides are craving that drink, the fun getting high, the laughter with how crazy everyone looked doing stupid things getting drunk, falling all over or the great feeling of going into another world with pushing all your pain and fears with what makes you drink aside for hours?
That pull has to be horrible. That's when you need to call a sponsor and get to meetings. Yes, you may feel, what a way to live, but the gatherings with new sober friends help you live! One more day that goes by without using, is another day closer to recovery. It will be a fight facing you all your life.
I am a heart patient with a second pacemaker and I am diabetic. You say, Not even close to my struggle and suffering. But, it is! I have to watch what I eat and do. My life turned upside down hearing the doctor through the years tell me how I had to change my life with habits with things I love to eat to "survive." Back in 2003, I had two TIA's, which can lead to strokes. Every day I "force" myself, and I mean force, to exercise for an hour, which helps keep my arteries clearer and drops my sugar levels. I have had family members lose toes, legs and have heart attacks from not controlling the the changes. I had to give up eating my wonderful sweets, I have to go once a month, sometimes twice, depending on my blood levels, to get my Coumadin blood drawing. I have to watch how much greenery foods I eat.
I believe we have to look at what we have and how we are going to get to a healthy life that God wanted us to have with loved ones to share it with if we want it bad enough. It's not impossible, but it sure is a struggle to get and stay where we want to be without a world that will end our lives early. Think of the rewards, the chance to watch your children grow up, graduate and get the job we wanted, get friends that really care how you are everyday.
So when you feel weak, run toward the people who will support and help you with your goals, pray for God to give you strength, and stay away from the path that has no future.