I think the signs of Spring coming after winter is ending gives all of us hope for new things in our life. Most of all, I hope we want to change our ways to a better way of living. Not only with the usage of drugs, but with our souls.
So many don't put the two changes together. No matter what you're trying to reach, I can't picture not praying to God to help us on our journey. We seem to overlook Him, until something terrible happens to us or a loved one. Then all of a sudden, we turn to God to help us out of the situation, even the unbelievers.
I've heard people swearing to not believe in a God, including one man I've known for years. His daughter fell off stairs and hit her head on cement and rushed to a hospital. She was only six at the time. He had to drive an hour to get to the hospital. His first words were, "Please, God, let her be all right."
How many of us send promises to God if He answers our prayers? You have to believe in Him first. You have to believe He is loving and merciful. He may not answer your prayers the way you want. He does in His time and His way.
I know, because I could not have said more rosaries, novenas and prayers to Him to save my daughter, Lori, from her cirrhosis of the liver. See, God had already taken my husband, Lori's father, in 1985 at forty-five years of age from his drinking and suffering from the same disease.
Why would God give me the same pain, even worse, take my daughter, my child? It was 2006, and Lori was only 39 years old. My pain was still raw as I had to watch the same scene in Charlton Memorial Hospital in Fall River, MA, as I had with Richie at the VA Hospital in Providence, Rhode Island. I saw Lori take her first breath, and her last.
Things may not go as we plan or pray for with a crisis. THIS was a crisis to me. My child. I felt like my heart had been ripped out of me. There is no greater pain than losing a child.
I went through my pain, and fought from going into a corner and dying myself. It took only minutes for me to know from my love of God that He had His reason. To this day, I don't know what it was, but I know Lori and Richie can't be in better Hands.
It's not easy. I may look and act strong, but I let go of my sorrow in private. I have to pray for another year without them to go on and do whatever I'm supposed to do. The same should go for you. Do you need and want to give up addiction, pray to Him. He never left you. You left Him. He gives us choices. We have to make them. Put your pain and decisions into His hands. Believe! Believe, until you think you can't make the decision or see the results.
Pray when you don't believe. He already knows you don't. And to think He still loves us when we don't believe in Him. How lucky we are to have Him with us no matter what we do or how bad our actions might be.
To me, these are the changes for the Spring to head towards. See if you find a difference. You will never be alone. You won't be judged. You will be understood. You don't have to explain.
Easter is around the corner. He rose from the dead to give us life with His death. He promises a place for us if we believe in Him. This is our life now, but our death is life forever.
Make those changes. Don't hesitate. Change is growth. Take a chance. If you don't try, you will always wonder "What if I had?" Believe in yourself. Believe in God.
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