Frustration Creeps Back
The following Wednesday afternoon, Richie kissed me goodbye and left to deliver a television set. “I’ll see you about five.”
Five o’clock came and went and he still wasn’t home. I set the table and waited, but when it got to be seven o’clock, I realized that he wasn’t out working. The same old familiar, nauseating, gnawing gut feeling came over me.
Oh God, don’t’ let him be drinking. It’s been so good.
I was upset that he was so inconsiderate knowing that I would be worried. By 8:00 p.m., I put both girls to bed.
Debbie started with questions, “Can I wait up for Daddy—I want to stay up longer—I don’t want to go to bed.”
“Daddy’s working late tonight. You’ll see him in the morning.”
It was exhausting, lying as I defended him. She was just a child, and I didn’t want to involve her in parents’ problems. I tucked her into bed and walked into the living room. I felt so alone. We were living a happy life when he stopped his drinking for a few months. I had stopped looking at the clock every half hour, and I wasn’t worried about him walking through the door drunk.
I went to the phone and called Cindy. “Hi, Alberta, what’s up?”
“I’m in a state of panic. Richie hasn’t come home. Cindy, I hope he’s not starting to drink again. The later it gets, I fear that he is. I can’t imagine where he’d go.”
“Right now you can’t change the situation so try to stay calm.”
“That’s easier said than done.”
“I know. I’m living the same way, remember?”
“Why are we going through this?’
“There’s no answer except that our husbands aren’t taking their marriage seriously. They’re too wrapped up in themselves.”
We talked about a half hour, and I wondered what I’d do without her? Both our lives were upside down one minute and then calm for weeks. We were always on a roller coaster ride because of our husband's drinking pattern.
“Call me tomorrow.”
“I’ll let you know what happens.”
Truth in every page
I couldn't put this book down. I have been unable to read a complete book for the last 8 years and this one I couldn't put down. Not only is it an easy read but anyone who has been in an alcoholic marriage will find comfort in this. This is not a self help book, but it gives you the realization that someone else has felt exactly what you felt and you were not crazy.
By Midwest Book Review
Alcoholism is not only destructive for the alcoholic, but his family as well. "Someone Stop This Merry-Go-Round" tells the story of Alberta H. Sequeira, and how she slowly lost her husband to alcohol. Reflecting on her own views, what happens to her family, and how one man's self-destruction proved to be more than only self, Sequeira has a life that many will sadly relate to, and will find comfort in. For those looking for strength from their own alcohol-driven problems, "Someone Stop This Merry-Go-Round" is a top pick.
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